what a change…

Welp, its incredible how fast things can change. The last post was written in pain and 430a – what was stated is true. However, its amazing how a few coping

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Complete Opposite Expectation

Looks like the invert of what was told is happening. I came here electively, excited even to get a few things handled. I talked to Daniel, explained my story in

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ROUGH Landing

After all the carnage, pain, devastation after I broke my record, awake almost 9 days – I was excited to get to the treatment center. Unlike the other times –

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NewDay.1

Once I had that spiritual connection – that incredible moment, I became very attune to God’s influence, presence and design. This was a result of the ‘God Zoom’ mentioned. However,

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CONNECTION.OutLine

**Broken Chaos to Purpose & Peace** I was hit with a **spiritual freight train** on 9.27_28.2025—a true **demarcation point** in my story. A **before vs. after** moment that changed everything.

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keith

Keith  Promise letter  I’ve got them  Sorry  Thank you for giving me second chance  Faith boosted..  Ring  Impact massive  Support of Kristen to support me during my medical issues  You

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3.3 – toolbox saves life

I had by far my biggest psychiatric event on Sunday night. My ability to navigate without causing permanent damage to myself or anyone else is a result of MANY previous

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Intro

I have eluded for many years a desire to finally tell the world my story. Not because I am some special, self-promoting narcissist, but rather my story contains many elements

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wave of emergencies

F. Emergencies, Surgeries, Fatherhood G. Daddy (2008) Parker birth, appendix, laurel st project w DJ, appendix removed, Fred S house work, Brandon wedding, Bach party, fat looking like shit, blood

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mini

Parker’s full name is Darrin Parker Abell—he is a copy of me in so many ways. For years, Kristen and the boys would joke and call him my “mini me,”

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